a-human

So, it's been almost a year since I've posted anything on here, but dA seems to have recovered a bit from the changes, and because of that I'm debating whether I should start using it again.

In other, personal, news: I've finally "figured out" how to deal with my depression, and also got my fam to accept that that is my reality, maybe not something that they can ever fully understand but something that they can choose to accept.
Speaking of depression, it's a very hard battle, and if anyone who's reading this is also fighting it.... that sucks, man, but I know you can do it. One day you'll find a way that's right for you to handle it. Don't give up. There IS a bright and gentle future for you ahead, make sure you're there to witness it.
My other "demons" are still running amok, though, but that's another story. Main thing, I captured something huge, something that's been with me since childhood, and that's a big step.

Other than that I stopped running around, trying to get every possible small job and founded a creative center (don't know if I mentioned it before). It's been almost 2 (...3?) years since opening and although I've thought about closing it several times now (bc I lost the spirit, other people ("friends") trying to drag me, the creepy whispers at the back of my head, etc etc), but it's still doing ok. No profit but no loss either, which IS actually my first goal for it. Staying afloat! So, that's good.


Anyhow, don't know if I'll be posting regularly here, but I wanted to say HI! and I'm still alive.

Greets!
K

So, a while ago I've started to record myself drawing some small stuff when trying out new mediums (for me) on the "manga style". Just to see how "wrong" my process looks and what I should pay attention to next time. (Like beginners in sports watching recordings of themselves and others in order to improve their posture etc.)
But about a year ago my small camera just disappeared!
I've been wracking my brain ever since over where I could have put it. Seriously, sometimes it occupied my thoughts so much that I was just standing in the middle of my office, staring at the floor for an hour (!) trying to imagine where it could be.

Yesterday, my mother told me she's had it this whole time and that I should help her with it since she doesn't know how to use it and it's all in Japanese.
She just took my camera. From my office. Without telling me. (and no, my office isn't in her basement or anything like that. She just has a spare key for emergencies.)

That said, on monday I'm getting myself a new camera.



COMMUNICATION, PEOPLE! COMMUNICATION!!!!!

But nothing much was happening... Soooo, yeah.
Helloo!

Everytime I'm asked "why don't you go out, like, at all?"
I think to myself "well, I do the bookkeeping for five different companies, while organizing a creative center where I still don't have any coworkers, I'm expected to be there for my family which is full of issues and I seem to be the only neutral one AND on top of being an introvert I have a problem with alcohol, soooo...."
while answering something like "it's not really my cup of tea"

Words, man, sometimes they fail me.., but I think in this case it's better this way.

Mother: Teach me how to draw comics

Me: Errm… You do know my level, right?

Mother: Of course! Like this (takes out a pic I drew 10 years ago)

Me:  O-kay..? What would you like to draw about?

Mother: The story of my family, from our ancestors to modern day

Me: … May I ask what for?

Mother: For my sister’s anniversary! It’d make a great present!

Me: Wait the anniversary, when was that again?

Mother: In a month! We’ve got plenty of time!

Me: 

Mother: Right?






RIGHT?!